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Saturday, January 16th, 2010

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    1:49a
    Definitely not a Seeker's MO, if you know what I...
    Definitely not a
    Seeker's MO, if you know what I meanI've tried to reason it outUse logic, right? So, if you
    didn't have backup, which I've seen no sign of, and you had no way to get back, then you
    must've had a different goalYou haven't been real talkative since you got here, 'cept with the
    kid just now, but I've listened to what youhave saidKind of seems to me like the reason you
    almost died out there was 'cause you were hell-bent on finding that kid and Jared
    “Only why wouldyou care?” Jeb asked, expecting no answer, just musing“So, this is how I see
    it: either you're a really good actress–like a super-Seeker, some new breed, sneakier than the
    first–with some kind of a plan I can't figure out, or you're not actingThe rolex replica swiss first seems like a
    pretty complicated explanation for your behavior, then and now, and I don't buy it
    “But if you're not acting…”
    He paused for a moment
    “Spent a lot of time watching your kindI was always waiting for them to change, you know,
    when they didn't have to act like us anymore, because there was no one to actforI kept on
    watching and waiting, but they just kept on actin' like humansStaying with their bodies'
    families, going out for picnics in good weather, plantin' flowers and paintin' pictures and all the
    rest of itI've been wondering if you all aren't turning sort of humanIf we don't have some real
    influence, in the end
    He waited, giving me a chance to respond
    “Saw something a few years ago that stuck with coco chanel graffite hobo bag meOld man and woman, well, the bodies of
    an old man and an old womanBeen together so long that the skin on their fingers grew in
    ridges around their wedding ringsThey were holding hands, and he kissed her on her cheek,
    and she blushed under all those wrinklesOccurred to me that you have all the same feelings we
    have, because you're really us, not just hands in a puppet“We have all the same feelingsHope, and pain, and
    love
    “So, if you aren't acting… well, then I'd swear to it that you loved them bothWanda,
    not just Mel's body
    I put my head down on my armsThe gesture was tantamount to an admission, but I didn't care
    I couldn't hold it up anymoreBut I wonder about my niece, tooWhat it was like for her, what it would balenciaga uk be
    like for meWhen they put somebody inside your head, are you just… gone? Erased? Like being
    dead? Or is it like being asleep? Are you aware of the outside control? Is it aware of you? Are
    you trapped there, screaming inside?”
    I sat very still, trying to keep my face smooth
    “Plainly, your memories and behaviors, all that is left behindBut your consciousness… Seems
    like some people wouldn't go down without a fightHell, I know I would try to stay–never been
    one to take no for an answer, anyone will tell you thatAll of us who are left are
    fightersAnd, you know, I woulda pegged Mel for a fighter, too
    He didn't move his eyes from the ceiling, but I looked at the floor–stared at it, memorizing the
    patterns in the purple gray fine jewelry tiffany dust
    “Yeah, I've wondered about that a lot
    I could feel his eyes on me now, though my head was still downI didn't move, except to
    breathe slowly in and outIt took a great deal of effort to keep that slow rhythm smoothI had
    to swallow; the blood was still flowing in my mouth
    Why did we ever think he was crazy?Mel wondered
    Well, maybe this means we don't have to keep quiet anymoreShe'd
    been very quiet lately, absent almost half the timeIt wasn't as easy for her to concentrate when
    she was relatively happyShe'd won her big fightShe'd gotten us hereHer secrets were no
    longer in jeopardy; Jared and Jamie could never be betrayed by her memories
    With the fight taken out of her, it was harder for her to find the will to speak, even to louis vuitton denim pleaty handbag
    7:53p
    These words were strong in my earsMy body reacted...
    These words were strong in my earsMy body reacted to them; I felt my breathing speed, heard
    the sound of my heart pumping louder than was usualBeside the bed I lay on, a machine
    registered the increases with a muted beepingThe Healer and the Seeker were too involved in
    their disagreement to notice
    “But one that even they must realize is long lostThey are outnumbered by what? A million to
    one? I imagine you would know
    “We estimate the odds are quite a bit higher in our favor,” she admitted grudgingly
    The Healer appeared to be content to let his side of the disagreement rest with that information
    It was quiet for a moment
    I used the empty time to evaluate my situation
    I was in a Healing facility, recovering from an unusually traumatic insertionI was sure the body
    that hosted me had been fully healed before it was given to meA damaged host would have
    been disposed of
    I chanel bags considered the conflicting opinions of the Healer and the SeekerAccording to the
    information I had been given before making the choice to come here, the Healer had the right of
    itHostilities with the few remaining pockets of humans were all but overThe planet called
    Earth was as peaceful and serene as it looked from space, invitingly green and blue, wreathed in
    its harmless white vaporsAs was the way of the soul, harmony was universal now
    The verbal dissension between the Healer and the Seeker was out of characterStrangely
    aggressive for our kindCould they be true, the whispered rumors that had
    undulated like waves through the thoughts of the… of the…
    I was distracted, trying to find the name for my last host speciesWe'd had a name, I knew that
    But, no longer connected to that host, I could not remember the wordWe'd used much simpler
    language than this, a silent language of prada fairy thought that connected us all into one great mindA
    necessary convenience when one was rooted forever into the wet black soil
    I could describe that species in my new human languageWe lived on the floor of the great
    ocean that covered the entire surface of our world–a world that had a name, too, but that was
    also goneWe each had a hundred arms and on each arm a thousand eyes, so that, with our
    thoughts connected, not one sight in the vast waters went unseenThere was no need for sound,
    so there was no way to hear itWe tasted the waters, and, with our sight, that told us all we
    needed to knowWe tasted the suns, so many leagues above the water, and turned their taste
    into the food we needed
    I could describe us, but I could not name usI sighed for the lost knowledge, and then returned
    my ponderings to what I'd overheard
    Souls did not, as a rule, speak anything but the tiffany jewelry replica truthSeekers, of course, had the requirements
    of their Calling, but between souls there was never reason for a lieWith my last species'
    language of thought, it would have been impossible to lie, even had we wanted toHowever,
    anchored as we were, we told ourselves stories to alleviate the boredomStorytelling was the
    most honored of all talents, for it benefited everyone
    Sometimes, fact mixed with fiction so thoroughly that, though no lies were told, it was hard to
    remember what was strictly true
    When we thought of the new planet–Earth, so dry, so varied, and filled with such violent,
    destructive denizens we could barely imagine them–our horror was sometimes overshadowed by
    our excitementStories spun themselves quickly around the thrilling new subjectThe
    wars–wars! our kind having to fight!–were first reported accurately and then embellished and
    fictionalizedWhen the stories conflicted louis vuitton travel bags with the official information I sought out, I naturally
    believed the first reports
    But there were whispers of this: of human hosts so strong that the souls were forced to
    abandon themHosts whose minds could not be completely suppressedSouls who took on the
    personality of the body, rather than the other way around
    But that seemed almost to be the Healer's accusation
    I dismissed the thoughtThe more likely meaning of his censure was the distaste most of us felt
    for the Seeker's CallingWho would choose a life of conflict and pursuit? Who would be
    attracted to the chore of tracking down unwilling hosts and capturing them? Who would have
    the stomach to face the violence of this particular species, the hostile humans who killed so
    easily, so thoughtlessly? Here, on this planet, the Seekers had become practically a… militia–my
    new brain supplied the term for the unfamiliar bag by louis vuitton concep
    11:12p
    Definitely not a Seeker's MO, if you know what I...
    Definitely not a
    Seeker's MO, if you know what I meanI've tried to reason it outUse logic, right? So, if you
    didn't have backup, which I've seen no sign of, and you had no way to get back, then you
    must've had a different goalYou haven't been real talkative since you got here, 'cept with the
    kid just now, but I've listened to what youhave saidKind of seems to me like the reason you
    almost died out there was 'cause you were hell-bent on finding that kid and Jared
    “Only why wouldyou care?” Jeb asked, expecting no answer, just musing“So, this is how I see
    it: either you're a really good actress–like a super-Seeker, some new breed, sneakier than the
    first–with some kind of a plan I can't figure out, or you're not actingThe rolex replica swiss first seems like a
    pretty complicated explanation for your behavior, then and now, and I don't buy it
    “But if you're not acting…”
    He paused for a moment
    “Spent a lot of time watching your kindI was always waiting for them to change, you know,
    when they didn't have to act like us anymore, because there was no one to actforI kept on
    watching and waiting, but they just kept on actin' like humansStaying with their bodies'
    families, going out for picnics in good weather, plantin' flowers and paintin' pictures and all the
    rest of itI've been wondering if you all aren't turning sort of humanIf we don't have some real
    influence, in the end
    He waited, giving me a chance to respond
    “Saw something a few years ago that stuck with coco chanel graffite hobo bag meOld man and woman, well, the bodies of
    an old man and an old womanBeen together so long that the skin on their fingers grew in
    ridges around their wedding ringsThey were holding hands, and he kissed her on her cheek,
    and she blushed under all those wrinklesOccurred to me that you have all the same feelings we
    have, because you're really us, not just hands in a puppet“We have all the same feelingsHope, and pain, and
    love
    “So, if you aren't acting… well, then I'd swear to it that you loved them bothWanda,
    not just Mel's body
    I put my head down on my armsThe gesture was tantamount to an admission, but I didn't care
    I couldn't hold it up anymoreBut I wonder about my niece, tooWhat it was like for her, what it would balenciaga uk be
    like for meWhen they put somebody inside your head, are you just… gone? Erased? Like being
    dead? Or is it like being asleep? Are you aware of the outside control? Is it aware of you? Are
    you trapped there, screaming inside?”
    I sat very still, trying to keep my face smooth
    “Plainly, your memories and behaviors, all that is left behindBut your consciousness… Seems
    like some people wouldn't go down without a fightHell, I know I would try to stay–never been
    one to take no for an answer, anyone will tell you thatAll of us who are left are
    fightersAnd, you know, I woulda pegged Mel for a fighter, too
    He didn't move his eyes from the ceiling, but I looked at the floor–stared at it, memorizing the
    patterns in the purple gray fine jewelry tiffany dust
    “Yeah, I've wondered about that a lot
    I could feel his eyes on me now, though my head was still downI didn't move, except to
    breathe slowly in and outIt took a great deal of effort to keep that slow rhythm smoothI had
    to swallow; the blood was still flowing in my mouth
    Why did we ever think he was crazy?Mel wondered
    Well, maybe this means we don't have to keep quiet anymoreShe'd
    been very quiet lately, absent almost half the timeIt wasn't as easy for her to concentrate when
    she was relatively happyShe'd won her big fightShe'd gotten us hereHer secrets were no
    longer in jeopardy; Jared and Jamie could never be betrayed by her memories
    With the fight taken out of her, it was harder for her to find the will to speak, even to louis vuitton denim pleaty handbag

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